This Crazy New Love

So...they say you never know love until you have your own children. Holy shit balls they are right! Wow, I don't know what to do with these new emotions I have! Every time I look at my little bubba girl Eva my heart just fills with so much love and pride! Then she learns something new and I think I can't possibly love her anymore but yep there is still room for more love!

The day I brought her a jolly jumper I thought my heart was going to burst out of my chest! Watching the power in her little legs and the excitement on her face is something I will never ever forget!  But then there's the first time she aced tummy time, or rolled over, or sat unassisted, or smiled and giggled. Then just yesterday she crawled for the first time! How babies little brains teach them to use muscles all by themselves is so clever!

I also notice that when Eva is around other babies she picks up what they are doing and tries to learn herself! She is such a smarty pants :)

Becoming a mummy has been the most amazing thing I could ever wish for! Yes it's hard in the beginning, the feeling rough and the aches and pains of pregnancy. Then there is the birth which hurts like hell! But once you get that little person that you, YOU and the person you love created in your hands, you forget the pain and how much your body has been through you just stare at this incredible human being that is looking at you with so much love!

Our bodies are amazing! How we manage grow organs and bones and beautiful babies in just 9 months! And how our belly deals with getting far to big and your back has to handle so much stress, but yet you can do it!

Than there is the wonderful bond and power of breastfeeding! Yes it hurts in the beginning (I'm not sure my nipples with ever forgive me lol) but once you get a routine, those moments are so special! And clever (again) If Eva is sick her saliva on my nipples sends signals to my brain to tell my milk she needs this nutrition or that vitamin to make her better! Amazing!

So all you first time mummies to be who are freaking out about the birth or being mummies, once that baby is here none of it matters, because all you will survive off is this crazy new love!

My Birth Story :)

12.30am I wake up for my normal 3rd trimester wee. When I suddenly realise the pillow between my legs is wet, hang on did I just wee myself or have my waters just broken? I rush to the toilet but I'm still not sure so I'm straight on the phone to my mum, she tells me to put on a sanitary towel so it can catch your waters so you can see the colour of it. I stand to get a towel and woosh out comes liquid, yep my waters have definitely broken! Do I wake my partner or do I just deal with this by myself for the moment? I opted for the latter.

 I did some colouring in and messaged my mum non stop (she lives in the UK, I live in Australia) After about 2 hours I hadn't really had any contractions so I decided to download finding Dory and chill in bed watching it. So I woke my partner at 3am. 'Babe my waters have broken' he sits up 'WHAT!!! OMG!!' Laughing, I tell him to calm down, I'm not getting contractions yet. So I watch finding Dory and crash out for a couple of hours.

 By 9.30am I'm getting mild contractions so my midwife tells me to go to hospital to get checked out as it's been a while since my waters broke and I could have a risk of infection. So we load into the car (my partner and friend) and head to the hospital. All minor contractions have stopped now and I get checked down below and all is good. We get shown a video of being induced and asked if they want to book us in for tomorrow morning. We say no as we want to try and have her naturally. So off back home we head, I'm hungry and I'm craving a McDonalds milkshake so we grab a meal on the way home.

 I sit outside to eat my McDonald's (after downing the milkshake) and BAM a really painful contraction hits and I'm suddenly not hungry anymore. The next one hits about 15 mins later and we are like ok something might be happening here let's put the Sausage Factory on (strangest film ever) but I'm getting more and more painful contractions so I jump up in the shower! Ouch this is really starting to hurt. I call my midwife she tells me once they come every 5-7 mins than I ring her again.

 They are  coming every 10 minutes now. I go back downstairs and tell my partner and my friend I think we need to go back to the hospital, they both look and me and go nah your alright, to which I throw my milkshake back up in the kitchen sink. Back up in the shower I go, my midwife has said see if you can last half hour longer so she can get everything ready at the hospital ( I wanted a water bath) I'm in the shower partner holding my hands, friend massaging my back because damn these contractions really hurt! Next thing I need the toilet so I go sit on it and the urge to push comes on very strongly and I panic! There's blood and I'm scared! We ring my midwife and she says if I need to push the baby is coming and we need to call a ambulance!

 The ambulance is called and 10 minutes later it's here. At this point I'm screaming for drugs (I always said I didn't want a epidural) the poor ambulance man he was so apologetic that he couldn't give me anything! The journey to the hospital felt like ages when it was only 20 mins. I yelled pretty much the whole way and finally we got to the hospital. The paramedics made me promise not to have her in the lift which of course I ablidged to haha.

 I get into the birthing sweet my midwife takes one look at me down there and says ok on the bed this baby is coming, No time for gas and air she is already on her way! And 20 minutes later of lots of pushing and yelling (always thought I was going to be quiet ha) and my beautiful healthy baby girl is born :)